This time next week I will be on the other side of my brain tumor surgery. Whooohooo. I find myself thinking of little else as the countdown begins for our little trip to Houston. Today I am spending some time just enjoying the simple things in life. This morning it was hot coffee in my favorite chair covered in dogs with a fire in the fireplace. Later it was a trip to “Christmas in the Barn” south of town. Since it is a bit chilly here today, we bundled up and walked hand in hand around the craft fair looking at all the fun stuff. Wafting through the air was the smell of pinion wood and if you got a little cold, just stop by a fire pit to warm yourself. Yes, today I am beginning the mental preparation.
I had planned in my mind to work until noon on Monday so I can come home and get ready for the trip both mentally and physically. But I think my boss may have other ideas. I’m pretty sure I mentioned in our staff meeting last week that was my plan, but yesterday he started talking about us meeting at 2:30 Monday. Well, what is he thinking? Not sure by 2:30 my mind won’t be already moving on, but will stay as long as he needs me to, but after that 2:30 meeting, I gotta go. Not only is he worried about me, but I’m worried about him and the office. Hope it’s still there when I return. [wink/wink] They’ll be fine.
When I was trying to decide when to have this surgery, all I really looked at was what would cause the least amount of disruption at work. When was the best time to be gone? I figured that time frame out and scheduled my surgery. Well let me tell you what I did not consider and I may need to receive some kind of worst grandma in the world award for this one. The day before my surgery, my grandson turns 6 and the day after my surgery, my granddaughter turns 3. I can still recall my daughter reminding me that she will be missing her children’s birthdays. OMG. What kind of Mimi does that? I do have a brain tumor you know and can’t be held accountable for my actions. That’s my excuse and I’m sticking with it, for another few days anyway.
So what do you pack for this kind of surgery anyway? I have already been told by my doctor that the day before my surgery, I can have no makeup on because they are going to put some kind of dots on my head and face. Great, no makeup. I hope he recognizes me and that I don’t scare the living daylights out of people. AND, that morning will be the last time “I” can wash my hair until the staples come out of my head. Um let’s see, that’s 10 or 14 days. Are you kidding me? I am thankful my husband doesn’t love me for my beauty alone.
So back to this packing thing. Ok, I don’t need to take hair care products and I guess I really can leave my make up at home. So If I have to be in the hospital for 4 or 5 days, what’s a girl to wear? I refuse to stay in that stupid little hospital gown beyond the day of my surgery. I have a couple of cute comfy shirts I was thinking about taking, then I remembered that they would have to be pulled on over my head. Hmmm, not sure about that. I have soft stretchy pants that I certainly will be sporting. I have also been told that the next day they will have me up and walking. Walking may be a bit of a stretch. Let’s call it preparing to walk in case I have balance issues. I just really don’t know. I’m telling myself it will be no big deal. They will tell me it’s time to get out and do a little walking and I’ll say, well ok, let’s go. Guess I should take a pair of walking shoes. Keith has reminded me that I will probably have to use a walker for a while until we are sure about my balance. I’m ok with that.
Keith, Craig and I will start our little journey to Houston some time Tuesday morning. I would like to get there and get settled in and eat at one of our favorite restaurants. My pre-op stuff starts at 8:30 the next morning and I literally have something every half hour with my final appointment scheduled for 5 p.m. I did notice they gave me an hour for lunch. My daughter’s plane arrives from Little Rock at 6:30 p.m. and Keith will go out to the airport and retrieve her. We will have a nice quiet evening together and then Thursday morning, it’s removal of brain tumor time.
Yes, I’m nervous but I think I’m handling it ok. I have heard several time frames for the surgery: 4-6 hours, 10 hours and 12 hours. I’m hoping for the 4-6 hour option myself and I know my loved ones sitting in the waiting room will be as well. I am so grateful to have the three of them there with me. They are my three favorite people in the whole world and I love them so much. I am also thankful for all my friends who are praying for me and for those who are praying for me and don’t even know me. I am humbled by all the support I have received. Thank you all. I know that God will be with me during this journey and he will guide the hands of my surgeons. So I’m signing off for now and as soon as I get rid of this brain tumor and my thinker is working again, I’ll let you know how it went. Peace be with you.